Using Memories As Fuel
I started working once Aspen was around 10 months old. Finding a job wasn’t easy, I literally had no clue what I wanted to do and spent all of my energy and time scrolling and applying to mediocre jobs.
Then one day my mum gave me some tough love and told me to start walking into town handing out my resume. GULP. I walked into the town of Locust Valley knocking door to door and handing out my resume which was (nearly) as desolated as my confidence.
Nothing came from it, but a few days later I got a call from a country club. They were interested, and wanted me to work in there Golf Store. Keep in mind, I had no interest in golf-but I had to buy diapers and formula for Aspen.
Failing wasn’t an option, and there was nothing I couldn’t learn.
I started almost immediately, making around $15 an hour. I worked on the stores visual merchandising, inventory, buying and helped create a website from scratch. In retrospect, I was passionate about making the job work even if I had no desire in golf. I was working my ass off as a single mum and would do whatever was necessary to support Aspen.
Fast forward a few months into the mix, and it was clear my hard work went unnoticed. I returned to work almost immediately after being the victim in a domestic violence case and that same week, was fired. I was told that I would never be a salesperson and it was one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. To this day, I use the memory as fuel.
I spent the remainder of 2015 building myself back up and healing all physical and emotional wounds.
Between court dates, dealing with lawyers, police, the attorney general and all sorts of people in between-it was one of the worst years of my life. I had to re-live the trauma over and over. The silver lining? that both events formed me into the strong woman that I am today.
Aspen is my everyday light and inspiration. I look at him and see so much love, happiness, and joy. Knowing that whatever life may throw at us, we're going to get through. I believe that being able to share my journey, free of fear and judgment is a beautiful thing and hope that this post gives you the same courage to keep pushing on - even when life gives you lots of lemons.